The trees covered in snow... In October??? :(

Quote in picture. Picture Taken on my Phone!! 

      This word was mentioned already makes me want to cry. Snow the one word me and every other person in Wisconsin hate hearing before at least November.  Last year's really cold and long winter we are dreading it even more.

    

     So this morning during a Prayer time more like me sobbing at Jesus's feet. Woke up feeling like my life is fine, then about half an hour later feeling like I want to go back to bed. Fellow ladies know what I am saying, don't you? I was praying about my life and a situation that has been so heavy on my mind as of late. I was finally able to just pour it out. I have brought this situation before the throne so many times and it felt again like God wasn't going to answer me.  All the sudden, God spoke to me and I will tell you for a min. I sat there stunned and all I could say was woah, Lord. After I was able to speak again, I said thanks Lord I needed that. I am always so humbled when I feel like God answers my prayer even when all I think I do is whine and complain. The quote below came to mind. 

 

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     I've started writing a verse on my wrist every day... Let me tell you I have memorized a few already. This is from the girl who never liked the idea of writing on herself now loves it. But to be fair this seems like a good enough reason to write on myself.  Mondays verse is stuck in there Proverbs 19:2 - Desire without knowledge is not good- how much more will hasty feet miss the way. This verse speaks to me about when God asks us to wait for the things we would give anything to have right at this moment. I think I am starting to get through my human brain that His timing is the best. And, how true are the words in this verse. The way I interpret this verse is if you desire something and don't know much about it then you may step in the wrong direction so perhaps sometimes the fact that God slows you down is to help you not miss His best. 

Speaking of God's best. Picked up this book and study guide today because I wanted to do a study again. 

It looks so good!!~ I will update you on how good it is soon enough. 

Lysa Terkeurst The Best Yes The Bible in this Picture Goes with me everywhere it is so beat up. But it is my favorite one it has all my marks and notes. And It fits in my purse ;) 

    So my Lovely young Ladies out there please keep your head up God is still right there. The storms of life will never go away all the way but God is your lifeguard... Keep drinking the Coffee and Living for the one who Died for you. 

     I know its already October But I am going to do a September favorites post. I love seeing those posts. hope you guys do too. 

Night sky and stars...

Right now I am sitting outside my house smelling the sweet leaf filled air. How much do we take time to just sit and take in the beautiful world around us. I know I don't feel like I do enough. There is something so peaceful about sitting and hearing the trees. Even though I live in the city I still love to just sit there and look at the stars. Thinking that our wonderful creator has made each one hangs where he wants it. And, all we can do is stare at them and marvel at how vast the number there are.

     The seasons changing, always reminds me to see what things God has done in my life in the last few months. There are quite a few huge things that just fell into place without me trying.  All I can do is thank God because it was all Him not me. My job came to me and what a huge blessing it has been. Its such a wonderful fit. So humbling for me to have things like that happen makes you realize that all the planning we do is in this life while it seems like it works. All the good stuff we strive to do, which is not a wrong idea, but in these things are we searching for appreciation or giving him glory? I wish I could answer that I always try to give Him the glory, but if I am honest no I don't.  Sometimes it feels oh so good to take some of the glory.

      Taking time, and just putting my heart back in God's hands fully. Oh how I wish I could just leave it there, but I seem to end up with it all too much. So as I sit here breathing in the fall air and look at the sky. I am just hoping that I can somehow learn how to enjoy and serve Him. How I want to be able to just be so in love with my creator that He's my only lifeline. Am I there ha ...  no, but all I can do is praise him and thank him for what a wonderful life he has chosen to give me. Humbling as it might be. And ask that he shows me all the things I miss every day that are His doing.

    

 Fall is here..

Life's Amazing... ok maybe some days.

I have not posted in awhile, but it has been a busy month for me. So my intent is to blog every day again. New job and other things starting up. But busy is good, right.

     

 Life is pretty good! New job and friends galore. Spent my summer chilling by more bonfires then fingers on my hands. Wonderful conversations and amazing friends.  Other times just hanging out. Became a person who loves running now (blog post to come on that). I have started reading again. Book reviews to come on a few books.

     

Among all the new and exciting parts of life there is still some stuff that is not going quite how I want it to. But the blessings way outweigh the bad. God has given me so many huge blessings again. And, the best part about it is that I don't deserve any of it and yet here I am. The Grace and Mercy our God gives to us is so overwhelming. Please take a minute or two today to look inside your own heart. Also, look at your own life and see that God cares for and loves you unconditionally. How much more humble do I get when I just list off the blessings and good things.

Blessings...

Oh, how many forms do blessings come in and how many do we miss. How many little things everyday do we not see that God works out for us? And yet some days when we are really looking how many blessings do we see? When we need a blessing our eyes search frantically for the answer blessing. And yet other times I see countless blessings all in one day. Sometimes it comes in the form of a friend texting to see how you are when you were feeling alone. Other times it may come through things that at the time dont really make sense.

    So today, I encourage all of you out there to look with open eyes for the many blessings today. Even the tiny ones :)

Roller-Coaster Life...

   
     Okay, so today is one of those days I feel like the whole world is up against me. It's also one of those days where I feel like I am on the top of the hill on a roller-coaster staring down. Going why am I on this ride again?  How'd I get to the top and now look we are on the bottom in one fell swoop. Life is kind of notorious for leaving me wondering, how I get all the way from the top to the bottom in a matter of seconds. And in that moment then you are feeling like you can't even do this thing they call life. It's time to, let it all out, and I mean all out. Tell it all to the one who created you. I don't care what your method is, but get it all out, don't be tough. God knows already he just wants to hear it from your lips. Let him be the one who sees the pieces all scattered around. I will be the first one to say I like to stuff things in for quite awhile till I can't. Then all the sudden I have a volcano of emotion and anger coming out.That, by the way is not a pretty sight.

    Here's one story this one is a bit personal but I really want you all to get what I mean. And so you can see that I am human and I am on this roller-coaster as well.

     I had Just graduated from high-school (homeschooling). And all my friends were going off to college,but the one that really got to me was my bff leaving me. So here I was, in a state of open world. Yet, I felt so trapped, and I was lonely. I knew at this point it wasn't going to go to college. My family was so wonderful during this time. They were encouraging me to do something but not telling me what that should be. They are amazing and will always have my back. I still was struggling to know what direction was up during this time. I had days where getting up and out of my bed took some doing. Somehow, people around me still thought I was happy. I had mastered the fake smile. As well, during this time I had began having stomach aches almost all the time and wasn't eating quite like I should. Because, I am already smaller it was especially concerning. I dropped almost 10 pounds within a few months. Scary, oh yeah it was so super scary. I still had the one thing I knew I could grab onto when I couldn't do it. God,was still there and some days the only thing that kept me seeing that there would be a light at the end of this tunnel. If I am honest, it was so hard for me to admit that I needed him. Before this God was my card that I could pull out and say yeah me and God are buddies. But now,I was realizing God was it he was the hand holding me. And no matter how much I didn't want to say it God was the only one who was there every tear filled night. I was not sure how to even take the first step into my future. I was terrified that I would fail anything I would do, so I just stayed at home in my room.  But after a few months I had watched all the TV and movies my mind could handle. God finally got me to rock bottom one night I was laying there with a stomach ache saying I can't do this. Crying so hard and all I remember was an overwhelming feeling of God's presence and peace and from that night on I took small steps to get myself on the way again.


     In the next few months my life started coming back to life. I had God, and with Him things seemed so much more easy to do. My parents let me get a dog and I was so excited because I had something to take care of again and I had a friend and ok yes it was just a dog. But he was and still is my furry little best friend. And so a few months later I got up the nerve to go to my church's Young Adults Bible study ( If your Church has one or you know of one in your area GO !!~) . That was one of the best choices I could have ever have made the friends I have made from that group are still friends now. I am still making friends from the group as well. We hang out a lot and have tons of fun. Then a few months later God blessed me with a full-time Nannying job. I was on my way to the life I wanted to have and it wasn't me doing it. God was allowing such good stuff to come along.

     Do I still have the hills of a roller-coaster in my life. Oh my goodness, yes and some are huge hills. But all the way through the hills I know I have God right there. Do I still go through days and months of getting my God card out. Yup, but I am getting better at realizing that I can't do this without him. And some days still stink, and some are still ended by tears. But I know where my heart belongs during the storms. Honestly, the good times are wonderful but oh so dangerous cause I get kinda cocky with God like ha I got this. You can just take a break today I got it. And while that works ok for awhile till satan starts in with his agenda. And then I run back to the one that is the only one that puts satan in his place.

    So in sum, I have a roller-coaster life like all of you. Some days it still get the best of me. I don't ever want anyone to think I have it all together cause I don't and I hope I never claim to. Keep your head up you will be at the end of the tunnel soon.